I wish I could have started writing letters to you when you were born. There are so many things I wish I could have done or done better. I definitely haven't been a perfect mom and I mess up a lot but no matter what I have always loved you and always will. You are the one who made me a mother and that is a blessing I will not take for granted.
Now that you are 10 I wanted to write you a letter. I want you to know just how much I love you and how proud I am of the young man that you are. Nothing in this world has ever brought me more joy.
I admire your sensitivity and how hard you try at everything you do. I don't ever expect you to be perfect but I always want you to try the best that you can. I enjoy watching you play baseball and I love getting to see all the awards you collect at scouts. Now I get to hear you play trumpet and am amazed at how quickly you've been able to pick that up. As you get older you may not stick with those things and you may try new things and that's okay. I want to make sure I do all I can to help make your dreams come true and find your purpose in life. I took a job in the cafeteria so I can help afford to do these things for you and I am happy to do that.
You are so smart, especially with math. It blows me away to hear how quickly you can solve a math problem. You do better than me. I'm so glad when it comes to math you have your dad's brains. Your teachers always brag about how smart you are and how well behaved you are in school.
I know there are times when I yell and lose my temper but I'm trying the best I can. My job as your parent is to make sure you learn right from wrong. But no matter what you do, I will never stop loving you and I will never stop being proud of you. I will always, always, always, be here for you.
Before you were born I prayed so much that God could bless me with a child. You were wanted. Don't ever feel that you weren't. The day I found out I was having you was the greatest. I thank God every day for you. I can't believe how fast these 10 years have flown by. I wish I could go back to the beginning when I held you in my arms but at the same time I enjoy watching as you grow and can't wait to see the man you will become.
I also appreciate how you are as a big brother. I'm sure it's not always easy having a little sister following you around but I love how close the two of you are. I hope that you both always remain close and realize that no matter what happens in life you both have each other. I love the bond you both share.
You are truly an amazing kid and I love you so much. You were the one who taught me that love at first sight does exist.
Love always and forever,
Mommy (I love that you still call me that)
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